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A change in seasons

2006-11-10T13:46:15Z

Guess the new season brought a lot changes, more than any of his brothers and sisters before.

One of the most important things I learned this season is the sweet taste of disappointment and the melodical sounds of crashing plans.

Before this I always thought this life as some kind of joke, also my religious beliefs indicated that every single being is here to entertain me (I still have faith in this system, though) so when my plans turned out to be shit, I start to feel as a normal human.

I find it not for my taste, so I'm taking steps to change this situation.

This sitiation put me in a very foul mood, so I started doing terrible things to people around just to change make me feel better.

One of my greatest victories was to manipulate my group to kick a pitiful couple of little bugs which annoyed me for the time being. He and his blood-sucking partner thought they kicked me out, but time showed the opposite. He tried to manipulate the others, but I already placed the seeds. Well, I'm just perfect in this.

Now they managed to put distance with everyone, and nobody can trace it back to me.

I'm just perfect.

Birthday present ;)

2006-11-03T18:23:43Z

I finally got my birthday present :) It was too late, but still it will work :)))

My friends bought me a DVD Writer :) Nice toy:)

An Update...

2006-11-02T22:04:26Z

I guess its time to make an update in my friends list... I haven't been thinking of this subject for a long time, and when I did it a few days ago I realized that now I should add some names to the list.

Thanks for being there and being great people.

Angelina from Moscow - you are so nice and I know you'll be succesful :) No matter what happens in your life you'll be standing, I'm sure.

Ipek from Istanbul - she is a long time friend but I wanted to include her name in the list :) I feel so lucky that I went to that conference :) Although I still think "I" should be the president in that practice :) Loves! :)

Suvi from Finland (and Adana ;)) - brave lady - I don't think I could make such a decission... But in the end you are happy, and I'm also happy :)

Nana from Taiwan - When writing this name here I regret many things, couse after you went to Taiwan I discovered what a great person you are and now I think over wasted opportunites to talk face to face.

Marina from Ukraine - A different person in the crowd. I am sure I'd be enjoying a face to face talk with you. Your point of view and your courage to tell them is special. I hope you'll keep that way.

Bugra from Adana, Istanbul, Bodrum - A long timer again, great knowledge and similar point of view to the world. I'm glad we met and I enjoy every second spent together :)

Merdan from Mersin, Istanbul - Childhood friend, my brother :) You're so special old boy.

Elena from St. Petersburg - No matter what happens, I can't stop thinking you as a friend. You're great

I hope I didn't forget to mention anyone... I apologize in advance, if I did. There are some more names to add in this list, but I guess we need time for that.

The Family Prayer

2006-11-02T09:23:47Z

This is the family prayer in The Boondock Saints

And shepherds we shall be, for thee my Lord for thee, Power hath descended forth from thy hand, that our feet may swiftly carry out thy command, we shall flow a river forth to thee, and teeming with souls shall it ever be.

In nomine Patris, Et Fiili, Et Spiritus Sancti

The Boondock Saints

2006-11-02T09:19:14Z

This film is absolutely great... After watching it 10th time I decided to write something about it here. The Saint Brothers keep amazing me all the time.

The court scene is by far the greatest scene of the movie. The words they said, are the core of the movie.

"Never shall innocent blood be shed. Yet, the blood of the wicked shall flow like a river. The three shall spread their blackened wings and be the vengeful striking hammer of God"

"You people have been chosen to reveal our existence to the world! You will witness what happens here today, and will tell of it later. All eyes to the front."

"Now you will receive us!"
"We do not ask for your poor or your hungry!"
"We do not want your tired and sick!"
"It is your corrupt we claim!"
"It is your evil that will be sought by us!"
"With every breath we shall hunt them down!"
"Each day we will spill their blood till it rains down from the skies!"
"Do not kill! Do not rape! Do not steal! These are principles which every man of every faith can embrace!"
"These are not polite suggestions! These are codes of behaviour and those of you that ignore them will pay the dearest cost!"
"There are variant degrees of evil. We urge you lesser forms of filth, not to push the bounds and cross over... Into true corruption, into our domain."
"But if you do! One day you will look behind you and you will see we three! And on that day, you will reap it!"
"And we will send you to whatever god, you wish!"

Star Wars Fun

2006-10-27T10:53:42Z

When we were playing Star Wars Role Playing Game a few weeks ago, there were some very interesting moments when we had to pause to game couse we couldn't concentrate becouse of laughing.

Well, first thing came up to my mind, when one of my friends was making stupid jokes about piloting a space fighter, I asked him to make a Piloting Skill check, in which he have to roll a 20-sided dice in order to see he is successful or not. He managed to make a roll of 1, which means his plane will be crushed with his passangers :) I pittied him, made him roll again - this time he roll a 5 - still a failure. In the end they end up crashing a destroyer type ship, which - given it was the beginning of the 3rd movie- is ofcourse General Grivious' ship. There one of them burned in the crashlanding, barely alive, 2 of them attacked a dark jedi - end up fried by his lightning. But the most stupid thing, the weakest character in the group managed to roll a 20, which means he killed the dark jedi, who just finished playing with 2 powerfull jedi's :)

I must go now, maybe later I'll continue :)

driving in turkey

2006-10-27T10:34:33Z

After getting driving licence and started to take the car from mother, I noticed that the problem in our trafic is huge... Of course I knew it before, but since both mum and father are experienced drivers - I didn't realized it that much.

I guess we have to change our public transportation system as whole, removing busses from the system and establishing light rail system. That's the only way to save Turkish system :)

Rand al' Thor to Cleanse the Taint, Robert Jordan to Cleanse what?

2006-09-11T20:24:02Z

Well,

I'm pretty sorry to write this, but in the 9th book of Wheel of Time, I finally lost my eagerness to read... How it is possible, I don't really know... But I have some ideas...

First of all, the series became incredibly slow. Rand al Thor, The Dragon Reborn, is barely visible in last 3 books, and he is the main character or whole world.

Second, The Forsaken, which makes the reading experience really nice, are again barely visible too... Appearing in a few scenes and saying "Now Rand is mine" or "With my new plan, whole world is gonna bow before me" is not quite the way I expected them to be...

Third the side characters... They are the worst part... There are thousands of characters (ok, not thousands... But must be something around 100) roaming around, making plans which most of them never ever comes into motion, talking... At some point, you lost the measure... You can't even remember who they were, what they are doing there and what are those "sneaky plans" they are talking about...

So, to sum up, Rand will cleanse the Taint in Saidar, but Robert Jordan have to cleanse all the Books...

To Kiev

2006-08-18T11:49:13Z

27th of August

Finally freing myself from Hell-on-Earth

What the fuck were those guys thinking when they first settle to Adana anyway? Who can live in this 45 C Degrees?

Disgusting...

Anyway, I hope Kiev will be a whole lot nicer than Adana, colder and colder and colder, till freezing! Anyway, cold is always better than hot.

If you give a second thought on last sentence, you'll surely understand what i mean. Imagine the extremes, with cold, you'll become numb but with hot... Burn baby!

Well anyway, i'm going to Ukraine to learn Russian... Hope it will be successful.

The point making this trip even better that Ukranian Embassy in Turkey claims that I'll be able to get visa to Russia. So seductive!

Anyway, 1 year of partying and relaxing, I hope.

Amazon.Com

2006-08-18T11:40:07Z

This huge site is one of the most brilliant inventions of 20th centuary (among with Air Condition :))))

So far I bought,

Soulforge (Dragonlance - Margaret Weis, Tracy Hickman)
Brothers in Arms (Dragonlance - Margaret Weis, Tracy Hickman)
Time of the Twins (Dragonlance - Margaret Weis, Tracy Hickman)
War of the Twins (Dragonlance - Margaret Weis, Tracy Hickman)
Test of the Twins (Dragonlance - Margaret Weis, Tracy Hickman)
Dragons of Summer Flame (Dragonlance - Margaret Weis, Tracy Hickman)
Dalamar the Dark (Dragonlance - Richard A. Knaak)
New Spring (The Wheel of Time - Robert Jordan)
Winter's Heart (The Wheel of Time - Robert Jordan)
Crossroads of Twilight (The Wheel of Time - Robert Jordan)
Shadow of a Dark Queen (Midkemia Series - Raymond E. Feist)
Rise of a Merchant Prince (Midkemia Series - Raymond E. Feist)
Rage of a Demon King (Midkemia Series - Raymond E. Feist)
Shards of a Broken Crown (Midkemia Series - Raymond E. Feist)
The Legacy (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
The Starless Night (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
Siege of Darkness (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
Passage to Dawn (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
The Silent Blade (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
The Spine of the World (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
Servant of the Shard (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
The Sea of Swords (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
Promise of the Witch King (Forgotten Realms - R.A Salvatore)
In Legend Born (In Fire Forged, Prelude - Laura Resnick)
The White Dragon (In Fire Forged - Laura Resnick)
Talons of a Silver Hawk (Midkemia Series - Raymond E. Feist)
King of Foxes (Midkemia Series - Raymond E. Feist)
Exile's Return (Midkemia Series - Raymond E. Feist)

Waoow.... 28 Books so far. Very nice, huh? :))

Thanks Amazon.com
Long Live!

summer classes

2006-08-18T11:24:06Z

finally, over

interesting that i managed to survive this one too...

I'm looking forward to do this thing again ))))))

hahah

no more anger

2006-07-26T14:50:54Z

haha became totally numb
won't care anyone enough to get angry

no more mistakes in my life

that's called fucking REVOLUTION

cdkutusu @ 2006-07-26T12:22:00

2006-07-26T09:22:52Z

Book of the week: Dreamers Book 1 - The Elder Gods
also: Dreamers Book 2 - The Treasured One
by David and Leigh Eddings

I'm terribly slow nowadays, it took me 3 days to finish one of them... offf fucking school ruins my life

Du Riechst So Gut

2006-07-11T20:54:47Z

der wahnsinn
ist nur eine schmale brücke
die ufer sind vernunft und trieb
ich steig dir nach
das sonnenlicht den geist verwirrt
ein blindes kind das vorwärts kriecht
weil es seine mutter riecht

die spur ist frisch und auf die brücke
tropft dein schweiss dein warmes blut
ich seh dich nicht
ich riech dich nur ich spüre dich
ein raubtier das vor hunger schreit
witter ich dich meilenweit

du riechst so gut
du riechst so gut
ich geh dir hinterher
du riechst so gut
ich finde dich
so gut
ich steig dir nach
du riechst so gut
gleich hab ich dich

ich warte bis es dunkel ist
dann fass ich an die nasse haut
verrate mich nicht
oh siehst du nicht die brücke brennt
hör auf zu schreien und wehr dich nicht
weil sie sonst auseinander bricht

du riechst so gut
du riechst so gut
ich geh dir hinterher
du riechst so gut
ich finde dich
so gut
ich steig dir nach
du riechst so gut
gleich hab ich dich
du riechst so gut
du riechst so gut
ich geh dir hinterher
du riechst so gut
ich finde dich
so gut
ich fass dich an
du riechst so gut
jetzt hab ich dich
du riechst so gut
du riechst so gut
ich geh dir hinterher

The Traditions

2006-07-03T21:51:16Z

The First Tradition
The Masquerade

Thou shalt not reveal thy true nature to those not of the Blood. Doing so shall renounce thy claims of Blood.

The Second Tradition
The Domain

Thy domain is thy concern. All others owe thee respect while in it. None may challange thy word in thy domain.

The Third Tradition
The Progeny

Thou shalt sire another only with permission of thine elder. If thou createst another without thine elder’s leave, both thou and thy progency shalt be slain.

The Fourth Tradition
The Accounting

Those thou create are thine own childer. Until thy progeny shall be released, thou shalt command them in all things. Their sins are thine to endure.

The Fifth Tradition
Hospitality

Honor one another’s domain. When thou comest to a foreign city, thou shalt present thyself to the one who ruleth there. Without the word of acceptence, thou art nothing.

The Sixth Tradition
Destruction

Thou art forbidden to destroy abother of thy kind. The right of destruction belongeth only to thine elder. Only the eldest among thee shall call the blood hunt.

Dark Father

2006-07-03T08:12:33Z

And from the Darkness,
came a bright shining light –
fire in the night.
And the Archangel Michael revealed himself
to me.
I was unafraid. I asked his business.

Michael, General of Heaven,
wielder of the Holy Flame,
said unto me,
“Son of Adam, Son of Eve, thy crime is great,
and yet the mercy of my father is
also great.
Will you not repent the evil that you
have done, and let his mercy wash you clean?”

And I said to Michael,
“Not by (the One Above)’s grace, but mine own
will I live, in pride.”

Michael cursed me, saying
“Then, for as long as you walk this
earth, you and your children will
fear my living flame, and it will
bite deep and savor your flesh.”

And on the morning, Raphael came
on lambent wings,
light over the horizon
the driver of the Sun,
Ward of the East.

Raphael spoke, saying
“Caine, son of Adam,
son of Eve,
your brother Abel,
forgives you your sin.
Will you not repent, and accept the
mercy of the Almighty?”

And I said to
Raphael
“Not by Abel’s forgiveness,
but mine own,
will I be forgiven”

Raphael cursed
me, saying
“Then, for as long
as you walk this earth,
you and your children
will fear the dawn,
and the Sun’s rays will seek
to burn you like fire
where ever you hide always.
Hide now for the Sun rises to take
It’s wrath on you”

But I found a secret place in the earth
and hid from the burning light of the
Sun.
Deep in the earth, I slept until the
Light of the World was hidden behind the
mountain of Night.

When I awoke from my day of sleep,
I heard the sound of gentle rushing
wings.
And I saw the black wings of Uriel
draped around me –
Uriel, reaper, angel of Death
dark Uriel who dwells in Darkness.

Uriel spoke to me quietly, saying
“Son of Adam, son of Eve. God
Almighty
has forgiven you your sin.
Will you accept his mercy and let me
take you to your reward, no longer
cursed?”

And I said to dark-winged Uriel,
“Not by God’s mercy, but my own, will
I live.
I am what I am, I did what I did,
and that will never change.”

And then, through dread Uriel,
God Almighty cursed me, saying
“Then as long as you walk this
earth,
you and your children will cling to
Darkness,
You will drink only blood,
You will eat only ashes,
You will be always as you were at death,
Never dying, living on.
You will walk forever in Darkness,
all you touch will crumble into
nothing,
until the last days.

I gave a cry of anguish
at this terrible curse and
tore at my flesh.

I wept blood
I cought the tears in a cup
and drank them.
When I looked up from my drink of
sorrow,
the Archangel Gabriel,
gentle Gabriel
Gabriel, Lord of Mercy
appeared to me.

The archangel Gabriel said unto me,
“Son of Adam, Son of Eve,
Behold, the mercy of the Father is
greater
than you can ever know,
for even now there is a path opened,
a road of mercy,
and you shall call this road Golconda.
And tell your children of it,
for by that road may they come
once again dwell in the Light.”

And with that, the darkness
was lifted
like a veil,
and the only light was,
Lillith’s bright eyes.

Looking around me, I knew
that I had Awakened.

death

2006-06-27T20:53:29Z

kill me please
kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me...
...
...
...

kill me, please

2nd year finished

2006-06-09T12:12:21Z

Actually this should be posted yesterday :) But i'm just too lazy )))

Anyway, I finished my second year in university ) Summer classes again but i hope all will be ok:)

And to celebrate it, i made a hugeeee shopping :)) Very cool :)

Food of the day: Cheese and fried potato (yeah i know they're totally different)
Drink of the day: Coca Cola light ;)
Event of the day: Finishing of 2nd year in university
Shopping))
Finally touching Vampire: Masquerade books))))

Music of the day: Stadium Arcadium - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Book of the day: The Historian (Author Elizabeth Kostova)

Without Cola

2006-06-07T19:09:35Z

Irrrghhh - Cola cola cola cola

I need it I need it I need it...

But i must control myself... I shouldn't drink this much :(

Anywaaaay...

Food of the day: Fish
Drink of the day: Water
Event of the day: Elena's good news
Music of the day: Lacuna Coil, all albums
Book of the day: The Rule of Four (Authors- Ian Caldwell, Dustin Thomason)

Six! Six! Six! Is the Number of the Beast!

2006-06-07T19:06:53Z

06.06.2006

or

06.06.06

or

666

Scary, isn't it?

It gets even more scary when you made a stupid move like going to Omen on that night.

Omen, probably one of the most scary films in the history, comes again, this time in the most appropriate date that can be chosen. 06.06.06 it is.

Damien, Devil himself walking on the Earth, wreaks havoc again.
Actually, this film is a remake of the first one in the original series, but with better effects. Surely you must see it.

Think about it, its the night of 06.06.06, you just watched Omen and you see no cats in the streets )) It was really scary :)))

Fortunately it was uneventful ))

Stadium Arcadium - Red Hot Chili Peppers

2006-06-05T09:06:22Z

Uhh... How long it has been since I listen an album like this... Can't even remember. Like my cousin (and brother :))) Saygin said, this album and the last two RHCP albums looks like recorded at the same time. But actually this one is better.

I can't write which song is better, couse I mostly listen it while my monitor is swithed off but album as a whole is very very good.

You must at last try it once...

X Men 3

2006-05-27T19:01:06Z

Well... Actually not so much to talk about this film... No quality talks if we need to define it ) But to tell something about film, lets see characters.

What to say... First, there is no Cylops in all film nearly, just for something like 10 minutes... and you cannot have an opinion about him...
Wolverine - well... in comics and cartoons, Wolverine is an agile warrior, superb dexterity and fierce fighting... In here, however, Wolverine is a stupid, running warrior with a inhuman healing ability... And that healing ability is also changed... In first 2 films, this ability was slower. It was something that ables him to took a great deal of damage but not able to continue the battle. In the first film for example, when Rogue took his ability it took some time for him to get over. This time, he took damage enough to kill one human for three times and continue battle. And he is so so so stupid. He run directly to Juggernought and not even thinks about jumping. How can he live to this age with this stupidity - this is the question.

Rogue - Not much to say, soo sexy girl, but chose to live as a human. And also that choice will change, couse it seems they will be mutants again.

Mystique - Again, not much to say. Beatiful girl as a human. We'll see what will happen to her in next film

Pyro - Incredibly handsome boy and with a cunning mind. I hope he survived for next films. The only bad thing about him was he have to be defeated by Iceman. He will return stronger.

Iceman - Stupid boy to look at that little girl and made Rogue run away. He have a cool ability, but I think will see him in next films more.

Storm - Stupid Halle Berry... Not much to talk about her except she's too powerful when you compare with comics.

Professor Charles Xavier - Actually he was different from his image in both comics and cartoons, sometimes he was even rude (Remember the his dialogue with Wolverine over Jean's body, he said something like "You can not question my actions") Pitty he died, for X Men films will never be same without him.

Magneto - Ohh.. Here comes the perfect character. Too strong and now he is again unrivalled. His ability to control metals will return it seems and with Jane and Xavier dead... Go go Magneto :)

Jane - Well... Its again different. She never told to be this powerful before, but she destroyed everything on her sight... Anyway, never liked her :)

Angel - Toooo little role, what's it? He was so cool but... I hope in next film we'll see him more...

In the end - its a film to pass time, not to be watched if you want something serious.

Blind Guardian Concert

2006-05-26T21:17:52Z

On 14 May 2006, there was an incredible concert in Istanbul... Long since I've been a fan of Blind Guardian but I couldn't go to their first concert in Turkiye... So this concert... Well it was truly INCREDIBLE

Given their age, you wouldn't think they would be this good in live performance... But they are!

Here's the song list to live that concert again :)) :

War of Wrath
Into the Storm
Born in a Mourning Hall
Bright Eyes
Mordred's Song
Nightfall
Banish from Sanctuary
Time What is Time
Fly
Skulds and Shadows
Punishment Divine
Bard's Song
And the Story Ends
Imaginations from the Other Side
The Script for my Requiem
Mirror, Mirror
Time Stands Still (At the Iron Hill)

So very incredible playlist!
Thanks again guys for allowing us such an incredible night

And see you next year!

Guardian! Guardian! Guardian! Guardian!

Coca Cola Light

2006-05-26T21:16:56Z

Woohoo... for a very long time i've been drinking this super thing) But i guess i have to stop... :) If you keep drinking 2 litres a day for 10 years most probably you'll die in 15th year)) fortunately it's still second year))

anyway i must find a solution soon...

but till that time, long live coca cola light! ))

Must Watch - Video Clips

2006-05-26T21:15:54Z

1. Rammstein - Ich Will

Oh my fuckin' god, it's not a video clip, it's a short movie. Must be seen!

2. Rammstein - Du Riechst So Gut

2nd Rammstein and another perfect one... It's a very good gothic video clip, one of the best of it's kind

3. Metallica - Until it Sleeps

No words, just watch it and surprise the fact that no video clip can express the song better!

4. Korn - Twisted Transistor

Hey you, hey you! this won't hurt a bit! It won't hurt you watching it, instead you'll find it very funny

5. Eminem feat Trick Trick - Welcome to Detroit City

You really should watch it, believe me... Very funny video (let's show 'em some love!)